у меня конечно все болит после вчерашних садово-огородных работ, но все равно я довольна
такой контраст по сравнению с городом - тихо, птички поют, воздух чистый, просто рай
а еще у всех в саду сейчас цветут вишни, все кругом бело-розовое, и так вкусно пахнет
...и две дюжины оранжевых тюльпанов на столе
мне эти 3 дня словно каникулы целые, прелесть просто
поеду кататься на велосипеде)

@темы: эрхолюнг

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дадада! это футболка дошла-таки до меня! ^_^
блин, терь как-то палевно кажется идти в ней в универ)))

@темы: shopping, random

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кхм

мне правда жалко и обидно почти до слез, что я родилась такой бесталанной задницей
не считая умения действовать на нервы и укладывать волосы
кажется, росли б у меня руки из того места, я бы нарисовала сотню-другую гениальных картин, написала бы пару десятков фолиантов психологического или прочего бреда или сочиняла бы гениальную музыку, а ведь такие задумки иногда в голову приходят!
и ах ты черт! вспоминаешь, что с трудом рисуешь ровный круг от руки, не то чтобы уж картину нарисовать
вот она, одна из мировых несправедливостей
я хочу быть сумасшедшим гением! ухаха!

@темы: лох-это судьба, me,me,me again, random

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У каждого есть темы, о которых он пишет в своем дневнике, и есть такие, о которых он не говорит. Предложите мне написать о чем-нибудь, о чем я, как правило, молчу, и в этом посте я постараюсь ответить.

@музыка: 4 minutes

@темы: флэшмоб

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хотела почитать "маленького принца" на английском и немецком
но что-то ни в одном месте не могу по-человечески скачать(
буду благодарна за какие-нибудь хорошие ссылки

@темы: books, internet

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чя пркедупркеждаю, это осмыфслкегнгныф ткекест
гникеогнда гнке пкетке чяа пкеркед кеомпом, а особекгнгно пкеркед клаво
огна гнке скеажкет вам спасибо

@темы: ужос

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как никогда хочется уехать на дачу, быть поближе к природе, может даже покопаться в грядочках, посадить какую-нибудь очередную фигню, в которой я даже не разбираюсь (обычно этобывает так: "копай тут, сажай это"), попить чаю за столом на улице и по традиции сыграть в карты
все-таки самые хорошие детские впечатления связаны именно с летними месяцами, которые я почти всегда в школьные годы проводила там
вечные игры с утра до ночи, поездки на песчаный карьер, день рождения, конечно
а в сознательном возрасте я больше всего любила гулять ночью вдоль участков и смотреть на звездное небо, такое, какое никогда не увидишь в городе за высотами крыш новостроек и светом огромных инсталляций-реклам
просто идти, задрав голову вверх, и долго смотеть туда, разглядывая яркие созвездия
а потом дойти до озера и сидеть на берегу, вдяхать приятный запах сырости и смотреть на отражение в водной глади
и да..еще задушевные беседы
впрочем я и сейчас все это люблю)

@темы: memories

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в n-ый раз одевая неудобные, но красивые туфли на высоком каблуке, наконец-то перестаешь уверять себя в том, что это исключительно для себя любимой, и наконец-то доходит значение зависимости между тем, как выглядит женщина и количеством мужчин в ее окружении
и эта связь далека от той, что существует между зарплатой мексиканских дворников и ценами на нефть
мне даже страшно представить, как бы выглядел наш мир с господствующим матриархатом и полным отсутствием мужчин

@темы: мелочи жизни, random

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Regina Spektor - Après Moi

она чудесна
в особенности в сочетании с Пастернаком

+1

@темы: music, video

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ein bisschen фоточек... совсем)

>here

@настроение: everything's ok

@темы: photos, friends

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от того что со многими близкими друзьями не получается очень часто видеться эти встречи становятся еще дороже и важнее
поэтому так приятно вечером гулять с дорогими тебе людьми, строить планы о поездке в питер в мае, играть в дурацкие игры по типу ассоциаций или в нечто подобное, укрываться от дождя на веранде усадьбы в парке, потом под дождем бежать по лужам домой, пить горячий жасминовый чай и просто говорить и смеяться, вспоминая смешные моменты из жизни
после такого становится как-то грустно, потому что с каждым разом все тяжелее собрать нас всех вместе и так отлично провести день
но я рада, что у нас есть то, что мы имеем на данный момент
в конце концов, дружба - это особое состояние души, не измеряемое расстроянием или временем

@темы: mood, friends, личное

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кстати о птичках - моему дневнику сегодня исполнился год
я, конечно, обещала быть оригинальной и не отмечать круглые даты, но это все-таки год, так что можно)) очень рада, что нелегкая занесла меня сюда, и я смогла познакомиться с массой интересных людей, да и вообще ведение дневника весьма занимательное дело, пусть иногда нечего или просто лень писать
так как я сегодня добрая...ну относительно))), то я готова ответить на любые ваши вопросы (в пределах разумного, разумеется), а то вдруг кто-то что-то обо мне хотел знать и так и не узнал, в общем, ю ар велкам

@музыка: daniel powter - bad day

@темы: blogs, me, me, me again, news

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The AfterElton.com Hot 100 List

via Онисович
для поднятия настроения)
ps: Fifteen of the men are openly gay or bisexual and they're noted with an asterisk (*) next to their name. (As readers will no doubt note, the list also includes men who are thought by many to be gay, but who are not publicly out.)

The AfterElton.com Hot 100 List

1. Jake Gyllenhaal

It might seem like we only love him for playing a gay rancher in Brokeback Mountain, but really, we love Jake Gyllenhaal for being our favorite boy next door. Born and raised in L.A., Jake grew up around the business; his father was a director and his mother was a screenwriter. Not only is he sexy, but, before moving to Hollywood, Jake was saving lives as a lifeguard. Bet you didn’t know he’s sweet, too? (He gave ex girlfriend Kirsten Dunst a lovely little kitten for her birthday on year. Altogether: "Aaawww...."; Jake is a matinee idol with legit acting chops (he was nominated for an Oscar for Brokeback) and a genuine respect for his gay fans; not only did he make a surprise appearance at this year's GLAAD Awards, but he also dedicated a rousing (and impressive) performance of Dreamgirls' showstopper to his gay fans — in drag — on Saturday Night Live.

2. Chris Evans

Besides his infamous role in Not Another Teen Movie (naked and dairied up), Chris Evans has slowly been proving that he’s more than just a beautiful face (although honestly, we may have settled just for that). He’s even let us in on how he stays so, well, sculpted: vegetarianism and a naturally fast metabolism with a blessed lean physique (ugh, pretty people…). Chris Evans is a rising Hollywood star, but if it weren’t for fame (and good looks), he would be pursuing a degree at NYU!

3. Daniel Craig

Undeniably handsome, Daniel Craig stole our hears as the first blond Bond in Casino Royale. Proving that fantasies really do come true, Daniel grew up playing rugby and was raised in a hard-working household; his father was a merchant seaman turned steel erector. Cast for a major movie role even before graduating drama school, Daniel’s talent was as irrepressible as his considerable charm. Craig hasn't shied away from gay roles and has a penchant for losing his pants ... neither of which have raised many complaints from gay fans. And who can't love the man that brought serious sexy back to the Bond franchise?

4. Gale Harold

If his passion for Italian motorcycles hadn’t almost driven him to financial exile, Gale Harold might have never become our own Brian Kinney on the groundbreaking Showtime series Queer as Folk. Harold started his glorious career when he met Joan E. Scheckel, soon thereafter starring in several theater based roles. Gale grew up in a devoutly Christian household and, thankfully, found his way to us from the "dirty dirty" — better known as good old Atlanta, Georgia.

5. Taye Diggs

Although he sadly isn’t gay, his gay fan base might like/love that Taye Diggs has a bachelor’s degree in musical theatre and played gay on Will & Grace — and totally starred in Rent! Diggs impressed us with his charm in How Stella Got Her Groove Back and has continued to do so with The Wood, Best Man, and the gay-friendly comedy Go. Diggs, married to Broadway diva Idina Menzel, will next appear on the Grey's Anatomy spinoff Private Practice, and we will be delighted to invite him into our living rooms on a weekly basis. Taye Diggs is, for lack of a better synonym, most impressive.

6. Ryan Reynolds

Sometimes being sexy isn’t enough to make it in this business. This holds very true for Ryan Reynolds, who has had his fair share of disappointments (he even briefly quit acting in 1996) … but thank heaven he never gave up. Hailing from Vancouver, British Columbia, Ryan grew up the youngest of four brothers, two of whom are policemen (sigh). Ryan's breakout role was in the sitcom Two Guys, a Girl and a Pizza Place as the sexy, laid-back, Berg, a pre-med college student attending Boston University.
Besides being the former partner of our favorite angry girl (Alanis Morissette), a newly-buff Ryan Reynolds won our hearts when he started the "himbo" craze by taking it off for Blade: Trinity and The Amityville Horror, giving us guys a reason to go to horror movies again. This former grocery store employee plays gay in his next film, gay filmmaker John August's The Nines, and we're glad to have him!

7. Hugh Jackman

Hugh Jackman is one sexy Aussie with class, charm and good looks to spare. He might be pretty, but he’s also smart; he earned a communications degree from Sydney’s University of Technology along with a pursued field of study in drama at the Western Australia Academy of Performing Arts. Hugh starred in theatrical productions of Beauty and the Beast and Oklahoma! in his native Sydney early on in his career, showing off his gifted singing talents, and of course took the stage on Broadway as gay musician Peter Allen in the critically celebrated Boy from Oz.
Although most may know him for his gruff (and buff) turn as Wolverine in the gay-friendly X-Men movies, Hugh is still a song-and-dance man at heart, having lent his vocals to Happy Feet. His musical drama Viva Laughlin (in which he cameos) will be on screens this fall.

8. T.R. Knight*

The media firestorm around the Grey's Anatomy on-set f-bomb made a lot of people forget something: T.R. Knight is a cutie. Hailing from Minneapolis, Minnesota, T.R. moved to NYC to pursue his dreams and appeared in several Broadway plays. He graced our tubes for the first time with the TV series Charlie Lawrence, produced by fellow gay actor Nathan Lane. Coming out, whether officially or unofficially, is always tough, especially when it’s unplanned. But Knight exhibited class and restraint through it all, and just days ago scored his first Emmy nomination. All this, and adorable, too?

9. Ryan Phillipe

Ryan Phillippe is a good actor and has a black belt in Tae Kwon Do. Phillippe played gay very early on his career with the role of teenager Billy Douglas on One Life to Live. He has since staked his claim in Hollywood, most unforgettably as Sebastian Valmont, a sex siren known for deflowering young socialites and having an openly gay best friend in Cruel Intentions. After a series of teen-targeted flicks, Phillippe earned major roles in award-winning and critically-acclaimed Crash and Flags of our Fathers. Hailing from New Castle, Delaware, Phillipe went on to marry and father two children with fellow Hollywood star Reese Witherspoon. Now that he's single again, his boyish good looks will come in handy ... and hopefully he’ll continue to grace us with his presence in upcoming movie projects.

10. John Barrowman*

The openly gay star of the British runaway sci-fi hit Torchwood, John Barrowman is a sexy Scot (raised in the States) with a longtime committed partner, Scott Gill. Besides acting, Barrowman has done his part to further the gay rights movement, speaking out publicly on the issue and making appearances at several gay pride festivities with Gill. Having appeared in a number of musicals (Miss Saigon, Matador, Hair, Anything Goes), John has also brought his cabaret talents throughout the United States and will soon be releasing a solo album, as well as hosting a game show in the UK. Definitely sexy and undeniably talented, John Barrowman is a class act and an example to gay actors everywhere that out of the closet doesn't necessarily mean out of work.

11. Christian Bale

Christian Bale has become somewhat of a cult celebrity, earning distinctions such as one of Entertainment Weekly’s Top 8 most powerful cult figures and being named one of the most creative people in entertainment. Bale’s looks have not failed him either; besides making our top 100, he has been praised by Premiere and People magazines for his stunning looks. And he's put those looks to good use, baring nearly all (and often) in the scandalously funny adaptation of the "unfilmable" American Psycho and as a gay journalist who literally sees stars when he is made love to by Ewan McGregor's glam rocker in Velvet Goldmine.
What you might not know about Christian Bale is that he is the stepson of iconic feminist Gloria Steinem, and is also a devoted animal lover with two dogs and three cats (all strays!).

12. Brad Pitt

Brad Pitt is the poster child for classic, conventional good looks for our generation. Despite the incessant media coverage tracing his love life, Pitt has certainly earned a name for himself in Hollywood for his acting abilities. Since No Man’s Land (1987), Pitt has starred in many big-budget motion pictures, earning himself an Oscar nomination for his twitchy supporting performance in Twelve Monkeys.
Although banned from entering China due to his role in Seven Years in Tibet, Pitt is welcome atop our 100 list, and has made numerous appearances on others including People magazine's "50 Most Beautiful People" as well as being chose their Sexiest Man Alive. No doubt Pitt endeared himself to his gay fans when he and Angelina Jolie declared they themselves would not wed until the United States allowed same-sex marriage. Now that's hot.

13. Christopher Meloni

Any man that is comfortable playing the role of an inmate, especially one involved in a gay relationship, is a true man’s man. Christopher Meloni rose to fame back in 1998 for doing just that, playing the role of Chris Keller, convict and love interest of Tobias Beecher (Lee Tergesen) in HBO's groundbreaking prison drama Oz. Then there was the matter of his lip-lock with Tergesen at the GLAAD awards a few years back.
Meloni also played gay-ish in 2001’s Wet Hot American Summer as the shell-shocked but admirably agile cafeteria man. Before acting, he supported himself by working as a personal trainer, a bouncer and a bartender. Meloni, hailing form the nation’s capital, Washington D.C., definitely deserves his spot atop our Hot 100 list.

14. Robert Gant*

Out actor Robert Gant won our hearts as the hunky Ben Bruckner in the hit Showtime series Queer As Folk, playing Michael Novotny’s older love interest and partner. He’s also played other roles intended for gay audiences, such as Billy’s father in short film Billy’s Dad is a Fudgepacker. While he's a talented actor, he’s also a smartie — he attended the University of Pennsylvania for undergraduate school and went on to Georgetown Law. Gant, along with Chad Allen and Christopher Racster, is a proud co-founder of Mythgarden, an independent filmmaking company dedicated to producing entertainment that both challenges and inspires. Robert Gant will surely continue to do both.

15. Patrick Wilson

Patrick Wilson is another man with a brain topping our Hot 100 list; he received his B.F.A. from Carnegie Melon University and was awarded the Charles Willard memorial Award for Undergraduate Excellence in music theater. On and off Broadway, Wilson has made his stage presence known, starring in works such as The Full Monty, Oklahoma and Romeo and Juliet, although most folks likely know him for his turn as troubled gay Mormon Joe in HBO's award-winning adaptation of Angels in America.
Since then, Wilson has shone in the otherwise unwatchable Phantom of the Opera, Little Children, Hard Candy, and Evening. His talent and passion for the bright lights of theater are likely attributable to his family which includes two TV anchormen and a professional singer. Wilson is a sexy, talented native of Norfolk, Virginia and will likely continue to earn praise for his performances on both stage and screen (and yes, we even love his GAP commercial with Claire Danes).

16. Mario Lopez

Mario Lopez, perhaps better known as the hunky A.C. Slater on Saved by the Bell, reaches our hot 100 list from San Diego, California. On Bell, A.C. Slater was the star of the high school wrestling team and, in real life, was an avid high school amateur wrestler. Besides starring in Bell, Lopez has played a sexy cop on Pacific Blues and is an accomplished dancer (as his turn on Dancing With the Stars proved).
Perhaps most notably, Lopez starred as Greg Louganis in Breaking the Surface: The Greg Louganis Story, a film which documented the tough times the openly gay Olympic diver faced on his way to becoming a top athlete. Or maybe Lopez' recent shower scene on Nip/Tuck is what landed him here? Either way, Mario Lopez will continue to win our hearts with his coy smile and sexy onscreen presence.

17. Gael Garcia Bernal

Gael Garcia Bernal is a versatile Mexican actor who has played major roles in several gay themed movies, including Bad Education and Y Tu Mama Tambien. From a young age Bernal not only exhibited a strong passion for acting, but proved to be quite talented. At 17, he became the first Mexican-born applicant to earn a spot in London’s Central School of Speech and Drama. So far he has twice been cast as the infamous Che Guevara, first in the miniseries Fidel and then in the feature film Motorcycle Diaries. In short, Bernal is a young actor both on the rise and easy on the eyes.

18. Ian Somerhalder

Although Ian Somerhalder is undeniably good looking, he doesn’t like to talk about his years spent modeling for fear of being dubbed "just another pretty face." But that's not to say that face isn't worth mentioning. At the young age of 10, Somerhalder was already working with several high end labels, including Dolce and Gabbana, Calvin Klein, Gucci and Versace. In fact, Ian was such a modeling commodity that he was the face of Guess? for two consecutive fall seasons.
Besides modeling, Somerhalder also made a name for himself by acting his sexy butt off, most notably on ABC's breakout series Lost. He has also played several gay-themed roles, such as Paul Denton in The Rules of Attraction and Russell Henderson in Anatomy of a Hate Crime. Somerhalder is one beautiful man and respectively earns his spot in the top 20 of our hot 100.

19. Justin Timberlake

Justin Timberlake’s smooth moves and sultry, alluring charisma make him an irresistible force of celebrity. As the frontman of teen sensation N’ Sync, teenage girls (and a number of boys) went wild for his impressive vocal range, smooth dance routines and great body. After leaving N’ Sync, Timberlake earned his solo career success with two successful albums. Timberlake played a young Elton John in one of his music videos, and if you ever have the pleasure of sleeping in the same room as him, make sure to try and stay awake to listen to him sing himself to sleep.
Recently Timberlake has brought his moxie and talent to other entertainment forms, appearing in movies Black Snake Moan and Alpha Dog, as well as participating in one of the most overhyped controversies of the decade, the Janet Jackson Super Bowl wardrobe "malfunction". Timberlake is an impressive artist who will continue to wow with his talent, sexiness and charm.

20. Heath Ledger

Although Jake might have won this battle, Heath Ledger is still a stunning specimen of a man. Early in his American film career, Ledger was cast in several teen movies (10 Things I Hate About You, A Knight's Tale) that focused on his pretty face but ignored his astounding range and depth. To overcome this, he took more adult roles in movies such as Monster’s Ball, The Patriot and Casanova.
Finally, he landed the role of his and our lifetimes, as Ennis del Mar in Brokeback Mountain, which earned him a well-deserved Oscar nomination for leading actor. His on set relationship with Jake Gyllenhaal must have been meaningful (oh yes!), because Jake is the godfather of Heath’s daughter Matilda (with Michelle Williams). Ledger, a man of few words but boundless sexiness, will hopefully continue to win our hearts and tease our eyes for years to come.

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@темы: men, photos

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Yelle - "A Cause des Garçons" Remix Tepr Video Tecktonik

меня вставляет

@темы: music, video

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кажется резкими перепадами настроения страдают люди с маниакально-депрессивным психозом, нэ?
кхм, ну да ладно
вообще весна на меня всегда действовала как-то странно
меня кидает из крайности в крайность - то я всех посылаю, то люблю и обожаю всех вокруг
доктор, это лечится??
а вообще надо найти время и встретиться с подругой, с которой давно уже не виделась, а то нехорошо получается, хотя мы обе заняты и понимаем все
но я уже соскучилась в конце концов)
в общем, как обычно, ничего обстоательного я не написала
все как всегда, да может оно и к лучшему)

@музыка: Klanguage - All this time

@темы: friends, random

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ich hab' lange nicht geschrieben
shakespeare aber auch nicht
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блин, а можно с весной уже как-то побыстрее? это собственно все, что мне необходимо на данный момент, ну и немного мотивации, то бишь пинка под зад, чтобы я перестала быть безвольным ничтожеством

@музыка: korn feat. amy lee - freak on a leash

@темы: mood, work hard go pro, die alltag, random